Podcast #90 On i-Tunes at The Kingdom Mentor Academy
Surviving Trauma
It is possible to go through a healing in surviving trauma.
I am an example of that…but…
I rarely share about this one traumatic event my whole family experienced over 11 years ago.
I thought I’d peel back the time to give you a glimpse of what it looks like when you shut down your emotions.
Let me take you back to July 2018:
I can remember the moment like it was yesterday.
I had backed up my car to the garage of our large home to unpack luggage after a few weeks in our small Louisiana house, which Dave had restored after Hurricane Katrina.
Dave hadn’t arrived yet as he had rode his HD Roadglide home….
I unlocked the door and entered the house going straight to the alarm pad. I noticed a warm dusty like air that burned in my nostrils, but was so focused on the alarm I didn’t take note of anything else.
The alarm strangely had a red light on which meant it had turned off. There had been some thunderstorms so was not alarmed. As I headed down the hall to turn the AC on, I remember trying to figure why it felt so dank and stuffy.
Just as I came to the corner of the hall, I heard my then 10 year old daughter scream out..”Mom, the couch is on fire.”
Right at that moment as I turned the corner in the hall I saw the black charred-burned hardwood floor underneath from where the door was to the massive basement.
The memory of the movie “Back Draft” kept me from opening the door for fear of facing a tornado of fire coming up the stairs. I then experience the sweltering heat coming off the floor and rising underneath my shoes.
I dialed 911 while yelling to the kids to get out….the house was on fire!!
Someone had set our mansion of a house on fire downstairs and smoke was rising to the upstairs.
I remember trying to console my children while we waited for the firetrucks and Dave to drive up.
They were locked in a grip of fear in the terror of the moment.
As the firetrucks came roaring in, Dave arrived stunned for many reasons.
Soon, police and other emergency vehicles pulled in. I let Anna call her best friend while I tried to console my shaken 6 year old son who was in a state of fear and shock.
The house did not go up into total flames mainly because my husband, who built the house, had insulated the downstairs so well where the fire was started.
This was a day of trauma….that in the aftermath I stuffed all emotional connection to it and what it did to our family into the recesses of my soul.
The after effect of that lead to a numbed out, emotionless, frozen Theresa.
I share more in my podcast which you can listen to by clicking here.
I read something that described my condition in Jason Vallotton’s book:
“I quickly realized that memories are like time bombs: if I failed to acknowledge their presence and disarm them, they would explode inside of me, creating incredible amounts of uncontrollable anger. If I let the anger out in an unhealthy way, it would hurt the ones I loved the most,”
Vallotton, Jason, Kris. The Supernatural Power of Forgiveness (p. 103). Baker Publishing Group.
Trauma.
So often not dealing with it can create a powder keg inside that will either explode or implode.
We are dealing with the repair and restore process to finding your voice in our Redeem Your Voice Camp the next few weeks.
There is a process to rebuild. It’s found in Amos 9:11.
Am I seeing the results of women in the Voice camp surviving trauma!!
These steps are also found in the process of going from a ripe grape to fine wine.
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Talk soon.
IN the Vine,
Theresa
