So this thoughts of going forward has been rumbling in my heart and I wanted to get these thoughts in the light.
It’s this…
Amidst all you are going through today….virus, elections, violence in the streets…media madness…or just your fears and tears...
Do you feel like... with all the emotions that you are experiencing, that it makes you want to just STOP going forward…
Stop speaking.
Stop believing.
Stop being.
Stop walking in the lane God has called you
It might be in your dreams, or your hopes, or your every day walking in your purpose..
I had a rough day….this week…(Amidst a rough past three months emotionally)….full of such a range of perturbation…anxiety..mental uneasiness) I felt like i was dying inside (my 18 year old left for college which seemed to cap off the rage of emotions)….
I am so proud of William as he garnered a full ride to Wesleyan... a prestigious college Connecticut! Four years of God taking care of all expenses...but oh have I missed him already.
But the day he left.....
Crash on my emotions
I have not had a day where I felt such emotions..that were suffocating me inside with so much ramped up agitation in such a long long time…
I’m not going to throw up on you….but I’m going to be very transparent in hope of helping you.
One side note… It’s during these times you need a few safe “Godmothers” as Lisa Bevere is bringing forward today with the release of her “Godmother” book. I’m thankful for a few who have been active with prayers, video calls, emails and texts of support ...
Anyway...The next day after this emotional tsunami….….some light came in…and my eyes landed on this quote from Christy Johnston’s Book…
“God has called each of us to be transformers of the world around us, and it is done through the power of our spoken decrees. “Christy Johnson’s book Releasing Prophetic Solutions: Praying Heaven’s Solutions Over Your Home, Family, and Nation.
I love that title…praying heaven’s solutions over your home…and your family even if they are not home now…and of course over our nation.
So this all got me thinking…
I used to be in radio…and I remember no matter what I was feeling…emotional upheaval or not…I had to go on the air.
Flipping that mic on so many times amidst a four or five hour shift….through good days and bad.
I can’t help remember bringing my kids when they were babies through toddler years to work with me…. during those early hours…
Anna was rather easy…. And quickly adopted by one precious fellow worker..
William? Well…that was a different case causing me all the feelings of “I am such a bad mom putting him down in a room..in his portable bed..and shutting the door hopefully he’ll go back to sleep…"
William with me at the radio station during one of my mornings at radio
And then he got old enough to lie on his little pooh bear coach INSIDE the control room…
I had this schedule where at 6:05 as Prayer time. That means my mic is open for at least 10 minutes.
If he started to fuss or whine…it went like this.
Mic On: Lord Jesus we thank you for who you are…(whines)
Mic off: William…shut up.
Mic on: and Lord we praise you and honor you for who you are (more fussing)
Mic off: William…shut your mouth…pleeeeease.
He grew out of that and became such a sweet companion during those early mornings…Around 9am a friend would drive up to the station and take him to pre-school next door.
What a memory…the emotions, the mental stamina to stay in my lane...that I knew God ordained.
What emotions are you feeling that seem to put a “stop sign” up in your head?
Here’s another thought about this…as I read this IG post from Havilah Cunnington…a mother of 5 and incredible teacher of the Word.
She wrote:
"I’ll never forget sitting in a church conference room, pregnant with my first son, when the man across from me said, “We don’t need to put Havilah on the speaking schedule in the Fall. She’ll be doing the mom thing.” ⠀
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"In reality, I wasn’t going to be able to give all my energy towards my job anymore. I was struggling with all different types of fears. Would I be able to juggle marriage, a new baby, & my own calling? Would I even be able to follow the call of God on my life, even though I wouldn’t have the luxury of dedicating my full time. ⠀
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"I could feel the heat in my face as I gathered myself. I was angry. I felt like I had been categorized, demoted. As if I had to make a choice between being a mom & being a communicator. Clearly that decision had been made for me.⠀
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"I looked at him, trying to compose myself, “Thank you, but I will still be staying on the schedule. We will work it out as a family, but I’m still working to pursue what’s on my life.”⠀
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"The details really don’t matter, but what I do remember is the feeling that I was the only one who understood what was on my life. I knew there was something deep down inside that I needed to articulate to the world. Like the thing I was meant to do from the beginning of time. ⠀
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"From that instant I remember making a decision that no person was going to define what I could & couldn’t do. It was between myself & God⠀⠀
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"I had to make a choice. I could have shrunk back in fear & allowed that man to defined me or I could own a call that was on my life. I’m so happy I chose the second....@havilahcunnington⠀
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So this is such powerful example..and thanks to Havilah for her transparency.
Think about that if you are a mom and remember all the emotions that come with being pregnant…
And now…facing challenges galore or just trying to make sense amidst the madness…
Have you have an experience similar to Havilah’s?
Your emotions..or what other people say about you…as the define you…
As they seem to tolerate you and not celebrate what’s on your life.
What do you do
1 Keep seeking God…and His Word. Find scripture that is for your hour…to declare and stand on..(Example my standing on Hebrews 11:11 and then Isaigh 44:3-4
2 Worship…sing…praise..go deep with music that shifts your atmosphere and emotions to awe and wonder.
3 Declare…Speak them…shout them.. Make those declarations that are powered by the prophetic…Speak what the Word says…
I feel this is a great quote of the result of when you walk in these three points…the seeking, the worshipping the declaring.. From Christy Johnston
“However, when we change our perspective, our voice and authority dramatically change too. We learn how to release the answers as He does. When we see the problem through the lens of a miracle-working God, we are able to speak differently, and our voice ends up sounding like His.” @christyJohnston Releasing Prophetic Solutions
I now go forward realizing that in my prayers, writing, producing podcasts, going live on FB...writing…
I come from that place of seeking God and His Word daily, worshipping him in awe and wonder, speaking declarations powered by the prophetic...
I have an opportunity, despite all the so real emotions, to speak life, hope, peace… from the authentic position of my life living for Him with the prayer for transformation for you….
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Ok..you know the saying..
Let’s say no to striving and yes to abiding as you walk in your lane, in the divine design of destiny...in the sweet spot.
